Memory is imperfect– but trauma is very real.

Of course, memory is imperfect. 

Of course, it is an interpretation of events, not an exact record of them. 

Of course, what we remember is shaped by our subsequent experiences. 

Of course, what we remember is shaped by our preexisting beliefs (not to mention the beliefs we develop after the fact). 

All that is true. Research into memory tells us that it is potentially malleable and faulty. 

Research also tells us it is alarmingly easy for people with influence over us to implant “false” memories. 

However: the fact that memory is imperfect does NOT mean that the only reason you’re hurt by your memories of the past is because you have “selected” a “disempowering” interpretation of events. 

People have used the fact that memory is imperfect for decades to try to persuade victims of trauma and abuse that their recollections are unreliable. 

Victims have subsequently come to believe that what they endured “must not have happened.” 

They’ve come to believe they are “crazy” or “making things up.” 

Predators have used the defense that “memory is unreliable” when trying to convince others, including legal authorities, that their victims should not be believed. 

I’ve worked with hundreds of trauma survivors, and one of their most common struggles is trusting themselves that they experienced what they experienced. 

I’ll be the first to tell you: memory is imperfect. What you experienced may not have gone down exactly as you think it went down. 

But I’ll also tell you this: the idea that people who struggle with post traumatic symptoms are “making up” their recollections or symptoms for attention is absolute nonsense. 

Believe me: no one wants the kind of attention you tend to get for having trauma symptoms. 

No WANTS the the abuse, neglect, or trauma they remember to be true. 

Therapy is not a process of discovering what’s true. I hate when people get into therapy and think that they’re on a fact-finding mission.

It’s not that you don’t or can’t discover truth in therapy; it’s that therapy isn’t the kind of tool that is well-suited for that. 

Therapy is about healing. It’s about restoring functioning. It’s about picking up the pieces of a life that’s been shattered. 

There are those who will tell you that the reason you’re suffering is because you are “interpreting” your life experience in a way that is “disempowring.”

They’ll blame you, in other words, for your suffering. 

That’s not fair and it’s not accurate. 

We know things about how trauma impacts people— and even on a neurobiological level, it’s more complicated than “this person has been choosing a disempowering interpretation of their life story.” 

Trauma is more than you having “chosen” a “faulty interpretation” of the past. 

Healing is about more than just choosing a “different interpretation” of what happened. 

Trauma impacts our psychology AND our biology. It leaves its mark in every cell of our body. 

Healing trauma takes time, patience, compassion, and support— and the courage to admit to ourselves that our wound was not superficial, and healing will not happen overnight. 

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Easy does it: backsliding is normal.

We can get seriously down on ourselves when we backslide in our recovery. 

Backsliding or relapsing happens to everyone. 

I don’t just mean “most” people. I mean it happens to EVERYONE. 

Nobody’s recovery is linear. Nobody just improves, and improves, and improves, with no stumbles along the way. 

Some relapses are more significant than others— but we ALL struggle in recovery sooner or later. 

It’s not a matter of intelligence. 

It’s not a matter of how good our therapist is. 

It’s not a matter of how effective the therapy is. 

It’s just the way these things work. 

The name of the game isn’t completely preventing relapse or backsliding— because you can’t COMPLETELY prevent it. 

The name of the game is doing everything we can to minimize the impact of a relapse on our lives. 

We can’t completely prevent relapse. 

We can, however, identify our triggers. 

We can create a safety plan for WHEN we get triggered (not “if”— “when”). 

We can create an impulse scale— that is, a chart that explicitly lays out what signs and symptoms to look for as evidence that we’re getting ramped up, as well as coping skills and strategies appropriate to each level of increasing danger. 

We can create a Triangle of Safety— that is, a triangular chart listing strategies and resources that we can realistically utilize at every point along the way if we find ourselves struggling, which culminates in reaching out for emergency assistance if we need it. 

Everybody needs to build safety planning into their recovery plan. 

The thing is, virtually nobody wants to think about it. 

Nobody thinks THEY are going to be the one that needs to make safety planning part of their recovery plan. 

Everybody wants to think that their recovery is going to go smoothly. 

Even the smoothest, most successful recovery plan requires safety planning as part of the mix. 

The important thing, in addition to having a safety plan, is to not get all up in our heads about NEEDING a safety plan. 

Almost every single trauma survivor I’ve ever worked with has been harsh with themselves when they’ve struggled along the way. 

If we beat ourselves up when we struggle, all we’re doing is reinforcing old messages that it’s somehow “bad” to struggle. 

It is not “bad” to struggle. 

It is perfectly normal and predictable to struggle— especially when we’re trying to make headway against things like complex trauma or addiction or chronic depression and anxiety. 

We have to deal with the fact that struggle is part of the process. Relapse and backsliding are part of the process. 

It happens to everyone. It happens to people with years of recovery time. It happens to people who are smart and strong and resourceful and supported. 

Don’t let it get in your head. 

If your’e reading this, and you’re struggling in your own recovery: what you’re experiencing isn’t evidence that you should quit trying. 

Work with your therapist to have a safety plan. 

Load that safety plan up with practical, usable strategies and resources. 

Nothing is too small to put on a potential safety plan. Put ANYTHING that might help on there. 

And whatever you do: make peace with the fact that at some point you WILL have to use your safety plan. 

Acknowledge your need for it; use it as you need to; move on. 

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It’s not about what you know. It’s about what you do.

Nothing I ever learned in the course of my own therapy and recovery made as much difference as getting in the groove of doing certain things, every day— no matter if I felt like doing them or not. 

When you get into therapy and recovery, you’ll learn all sorts of interesting things. 

You’ll learn things about how perceptions and thoughts feed emotions. You’ll learn how emotions inform behavior. 

You’ll learn how behavior then boomerangs around and influences perceptions and thoughts— how what we think, feel, and do becomes a complex, dynamic tug of war. 

It’s all fascinating, and learning about it can be useful. 

But, in my own experience, nothing that I LEARNED was the difference that made the difference. 

For me, the difference was in what I got used to DOING. 

Even before I went to grad school, I knew a lot about human emotion and behavior. 

Since getting into the self-help literature as a teenager, I’ve read literally hundreds of books about how the mind and the brain and the nervous system all work. 

During the time I’d dropped out of school in my early 20’s, when I was desperately depressed, intermittently suicidal, and desperately addicted to various substances and risky behaviors, I could have STILL had a very high level conversation with you about human psychology and behavior. 

It’s not about what you know. 

It’s about what you do with what you know. 

In my case, the difference was made when I started EVERY SINGLE DAY checking in with myself— with my emotions, my goals, my main problems— and forming and following a daily plan. 

I realized that if I did not take time EVERY morning and EVERY night to review my strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, and threats (otherwise known as a SWOT analysis), and if I didn’t manage my time every day (down to the hour), I would absolutely slip back into depression and desperation. 

It’s now years later, and those daily check ins and that daily planning are STILL the difference that makes the difference. 

I have made the mistake of assuming that, because I’m now a psychologist, because I have my own businesses, because I’ve been stable for years and have enough of a grasp of various recovery issues that OTHER people even listen to what I have to say, that I can slack off on the daily check ins and rituals. 

And I’ve paid for that mistake. Multiple times. 

Why am I telling you any of this? 

Because I want to move you away from this idea that anyone has “magic words” that you’ll hear that will turn everything around at some point. 

Again: learning stuff is awesome. The more you learn about how your brain and body work, the better. 

But none of it matters unless you’re DOING something different. 

There’s nothing that can take the place of daily routines, rituals, and check-ins. 

Insight won’t replace them. Intelligence won’t replace them. Toughness and character will not replace them. 

Routines, rituals, and check ins— especially daily goal setting— will make the difference between someone who knows a lot, but who is still stuck and unhappy and at risk…versus someone who has learned a lot, and is every day applying that learning to their daily life. 

I WISH there were magic words I had for you. 

But the magic isn’t over here. 

The magic is in you. 

It’s in your behavior. 

It’s in your daily, repeated behavior— your habits. 

That’s how your new life is sculpted in the real world. 

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You can’t control everything in your head. But that doesn’t mean you can’t control anything.


You can’t control everything in your head. 

Your perceptions and reactions and responses are the result of a complex interplay between your neurochemistry, what’s happening around you, your conditioning, your genetics, and dozens of other factors that we don’t even know about. 

We can’t possibly control for ALL of the factors that contribute to why you think what you think and feel what you feel and do what you do. 

But that doesn’t mean we can’t control ANY of those factors. 

It’s because we can’t control EVERYTHING that goes into our perceptions and reactions and behaviors, that we really have to take steps to control the factors that we can. 

What CAN we control when it comes to our perceptions, reactions, and behaviors? 

We can control how we talk to ourselves. 

We can control what we purposefully visualize. 

We can control a certain amount of the media content we expose ourselves to, and the amount of certain types of media that we consume. 

Whether we talk to ourselves in a supportive, reasonable tone or not, matters. 

Nobody functions well when they’re being yelled at or shamed or mocked. 

Yet, that’s how many of us try to deal with ourselves— often because that’s how others spoke to us growing up. 

When you’ve been mocked and scorned for much of your life, it’s easy to internalize that way of relating to yourself. 

What we intentionally visualize or imagine, matters. 

Sometimes pictures pop into our head automatically (especially when we’re struggling with post traumatic flashbacks). 

But there are at least some times when we have a choice about what to picture in our heads— and we will have a reaction to what we choose to visualize. 

Visualizing a cuddly house cat is different from visualizing a hungry, angry lion. 

It makes a difference whether we spend our days consuming media depictions of violence and despair— wither fictional or not. 

“It’s just TV,” you might tell yourself…but hour after hour after hour of watching violence adds up in our heads. 

Our brains cheerfully feed back to us what we feed them. 

If you struggle with really negative, unpleasant, upsetting, violent thoughts and feelings, I’m NOT saying that you “cause” them by what you say to yourself, what you visualize, and what you watch and listen to. 

What I AM saying is that what we say to ourselves, what we visualize, and what we watch and listen to can powerfully reinforce negative, upsetting, frightening thing in our heads…so we have to be vigilant. 

I don’t believe in blaming people for what they feel. In my experience, it’s just not that simple. I don’t think people “choose” to be scared or sad or angry. 

I just think we owe it to ourselves to give ourselves every possible chance to effect how we feel by keeping track of what we say to ourselves, what we visualize, and what we watch and listen to. 

We can’t control everything. 

But that doesn’t mean we can’t control anything. 


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The thought that sabotaged me for years.

A wall I frequently ran up against in my own recovery was called “nobody cares.” 

I vividly remember running into this wall in a big way. 

I had been in therapy for several years, and had gotten to the point where I was no longer miserable all day, every day— and, importantly, I’d gotten to the point where suicide was off the table as an option for me. 

I’d made some important progress…but I was still very unhappy. 

Just because I’d progressed from “miserable” and “suicidal” to “less miserable” and “not suicidal,” I still felt pretty lousy most of the time. 

I was in a therapy session with my therapist, and I remember thinking, for whatever reason: “he’s phoning it in.” 

That is: I felt that, when I was REALLY miserable and at possible risk of killing myself, I’d been getting a LOT of his attention and energy. 

Now that I was a relatively “lower maintenance” patient, however, I felt that I was somehow getting less of my therapist’s attention and effort. 

“He doesn’t care if I’m happy,” the voice inside my head told me. “He just cares that you’re not going to kill yourself and open him up to liability.” 

This opened up a spiral inside me: “Nobody really cares if you’re HAPPY,” I heard inside my head.

“They just don’t want you to be a pain in the ass. Sure, they don’t want you to kill yourself, and they don’t want you to be so unhappy that you’re bitching about it all the time; but beyond that, you could exist in this state of not-suicidal-but-still-pretty-unhappy indefinitely, and no one would care.” 

If you’ve been in cognitive therapy for depression yourself, you can see the many distortions and assumptions in my thinking at that time. 

But, as is usually the case when we’re depressed and our thinking is distorted, it didn’t seem to ME at the time that there was anything off. 

I truly thought— truly felt— that nobody cared if I was happy. 

That thought— “nobody cares”— would crop up again and again in my thinking, even as I continued to get better. 

Years later, during my graduate training in psychology and after earning my doctoral degree, I worked in the private practice of my mentor in the trauma treatment field. 

She had done many things to help advance my career, including taking me on for multiple externships and being on my dissertation committee. 

Yet every time I interacted with her, there was still that thought in the back of my mind: “she doesn’t really care if you’re happy or successful. She just wants you to make her practice money.” 

By this time, I actually had training and experience as a therapist, and I knew what I was dealing with: distorted thinking that was tied back to the fact that, when I was growing up, the people who SHOULD have cared whether I was happy and healthy, didn’t. 

Because I didn’t get what I needed back then, I internalized and projected that thought— “nobody cares if I’m happy or healthy, even if they SHOULD care”— onto almost every important person in my life. 

For years, I had a pervasive sense that the people who “should” care about my happiness— therapists, supervisors, mentors, girlfriends— didn’t. 

It didn’t matter what these people actually did or said; my (distorted) belief that they “didn’t care” had nothing to do with them, specifically. 

It was a belief that I’d formed a long time ago, that I was projecting into current time— and then I was unconsciously, unintentionally behaving in such a way as to make my distorted belief seem to be confirmed (most notably, I repeatedly sabotaged relationships, so that when the other person decided to end it, the voice in my head would say, “SEE! They never REALLY cared about you…or else why would they have abandoned you”). 

Why am I telling you any of this? 

Because we very often get our butts kicked by beliefs that we carry forward from the past.

That belief that “nobody cares” would cost me dearly in many ways. 

It would lead to addictive relapses and sabotaged relationships and therapy setbacks. 

If we’re not vigilant about taking a step back, observing our own patterns, and getting curious and realistic about what we’re saying to ourselves and where it’s all coming from…we really will sabotage the most important relationships in our lives and blow the progress we’e worked so hard to make. 

It’s happened to me, multiple times. It’s not about intelligence. 

Very smart, very self-aware people believe distorted things based on what happened to them in the past. 

Eventually, I had to accept two things: 

One: I could not read anybody’s mind. I did not know what my therapist or my ex-mentor or my romantic partners were thinking. I was guessing and imagining worst case scenarios based on my past. 

And two: EVEN IF my therapist, ex-mentor, girlfriends, or WHOMEVER DIDN’t actually care…that STILL didn’t mean that NOBODY cared. 

I had to accept that even if NOBODY cared about my progress…I needed to care. 

I couldn’t just be in this because somebody ELSE cared. 

Nowadays, “nobody cares” is STILL a trigger thought for me…but I can recognize it for the distortion that it is. 

That’s my trauma and my addiction trying to get its claws into me, using a trigger that they know works. 

Not today. 

Not ever again. 

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Why “shouldn’t” sucks.

When we tell ourselves, “I shouldn’t do” something, we’re almost immediately on a trajectory toward doing that thing. 

The human brain just doesn’t seem to respond well to “shouldn’t.” 

For some of us, saying “shouldn’t” promptly triggers the thought, “you can’t tell me what to do”…even if it’s US who is telling us we “shouldn’t” do that thing. 

For other people, saying “shouldn’t” triggers memories of being controlled against our will…and we immediately either panic or push back against those memories and feelings. 

For still others, the word “shouldn’t” conjures up feelings of shame and inadequacy, as if we’re being admonished for wanting to do something we “shouldn’t” want to do, or wouldn’t want to do if we were just “better” people. 

As a rule, behavior changes that are made primarily out of shame just don’t stick. 

We tend to rebel against them sooner or later. 

So there are al of these well-established reasons why using the word “shouldn’t” doesn’t tend to work well to create or reinforce behavior change…and yet, our culture tries to use that word to change and manage our behavior ALL THE TIME.

We’re told we “shouldn’t” use certain words. 

We’re told we “shouldn’t” even WANT to do certain things (anybody who has ever struggled to give up smoking or an additive substance can attest to the intense social pressure that tries to shame them for being an addict). 

The over-use of “shoudln’t” isn’t limited to the culture, either. 

We tell ourselves we “shouldn’t” do things all the time. 

We tell ourselves we shouldn’t eat certain foods in certain amounts, we shoudln’t spend so much time on the internet, we shouldn’t spend that money, we shouldn’t date (or even be attracted to) that person. 

It’s not hard to see where all these “shouldn’t”’s gets us. 

If “shouldn’t” doesn’t work to manage our behavior, then, what CAN we tell ourselves that MIGHT help? 

I like to get away from the very idea of “should” and “shouldn’t” thinking…and instead nudge toward what I call “could” or “possibly” thinking. 

When you’re struggling with a behavior that is in conflict with a goal of yours, and you’re tempted to pull out the word “shouldn’t”…take a step back. 

Look at the situation, and ask yourself: if I DIDN”T do this thing that I think I “shouldn’t” do…what might my alternatives be? 

If I don’t want to smoke, instead of beating myself up with the statement that “I shouldn’t smoke”— which will actually INCREASE my chances of lighting up— can I think of something ELSE I can do right here, right now, that might serve the same purpose as smoking? 

If I don’t want to use my drug of choice right now, instead of beating myself up with the statement that “I shouldn’t use”…can I think of something ELSE I can do in this moment to feel good and relive tension? 

If I don’t want to overeat right now, instead of beating myself up with the statement “I shouldn’t eat that thing in that amount”…is there something ELSE I can do in this moment? 

It’s a subtle shift…but it can make all the difference in the world.

Our brains don’t do well with negative thinking— that is, telling them what NOT to do. 

“Don’t think of a pink elephant.” See? 

We’re just not wired to think in terms of “don’t do that” or “don’t want that.” 

We’re better, however, at thinking in terms of “try doing this instead.” 

Instead of smoking, take ten deep, slow breaths. 

Instead of spending, think about enjoying some of the purchases you’ve ALREADY made. 

Mind you: many of the alternatives you come up with WILL be imperfect. 

They may not be as objectively “successful” as the behavior that you’re looking to avoid…but I will take trying to shift over to a replacement behavior over beating yourself over the head with “I shouldn’t do this,” and trying to white-knuckle your way trough it, every single time. 

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Here’s how I know you’re not “weak.”

There’s a myth that people who “need” therapy or who are interested in self help (or “personal growth,” “personal transformation,” insert whatever the currently fashionable synonym is for “self help”) are somehow “weak.” 

The myth says that these people reach out for professional help or read books or attend seminars about how to improve their lives because there’s something “wrong” with them. 

My experience is exactly the opposite. 

In my experience, the vast majority of people who seek therapy (especially the kind of treatment that I specialize in, working with complex trauma and dissociative disorders) are exceptionally strong. 

I say “exceptionally” strong because that’s precisely what I mean: they’ve HAD to be stronger than most of the people around them. 

They’ve HAD to be stronger, in fact, than most people will ever really know. 

A lot of people don’t seem to appreciate what it takes to grow up in an abusive or neglectful environment. 

Which is ironic, because growing up in an abusive or neglectful environment is actually a lot more common than many people think. 

A lot more people around you are traumatized than you’ll ever know. 

Why won’t you know? Because people who have been traumatized learn to keep it to themselves. 

We learn, over time, that nobody wants to hear about our pain. 

We learn, over time, that advertising our woundedness can sometimes make us vulnerable. 

We learn, over time, that people are uncomfortable hearing about what we went through and how it affected us. 

So: we learn to keep it under wraps. 

Do you realize how difficult it is to function out in the world, when you’re keeping a significant chunk of your life experience in the closet like that? 

(If you’re reading this, chances are you DO know something about this.) 

As a result, people who have struggled have HAD to learn to be strong. 

We develop defenses. 

Sometimes those defenses work well, sometimes they don’t— and a lot of times, our defenses outlive their usefulness over time, and end up creating more problems than they solve for us. 

But the point is: to even get up and function in life, when you’re secretly carrying the kind of burdens a lot of people out there, carry, takes strength. 

It’s almost a miracle that so many people are able to do it.

So, no: I don’t think people who seek therapy are weak. 

I think many people seek therapy because they’ve HAD to be strong for so long…that eventually, something has to give. 

When you drive a car for years, and you max out the engine and drive it over rough terrain and overload its weight capacity and subject it to the kind of pressures that it wasn’t designed for— eventually that car’s going to need service. 

So you take it into the shop. 

And the mechanic will tell you the kinds of things that are wrong with the car— and they’ll give you a list of things that will need to be done not only to fix the car, but to keep it it in good working order once it’s back on the road. 

That’s what therapy and self-help do. 

There is not a car out there that will NEVER need to go into the shop. 

Likewise, there is not a survivor of trauma out there— or depression, or anxiety, or addiction— who will not at some point need the support of therapy or self-help resources. 

There’s no shame in it. 

There’s no connotation of weakness. 

In fact, the it’s a testament to how strong you are that you took the car into the shop when you needed to, instead of continuing to wear it down. 

Accept that you’ve been strong. 

Accept that you’ve HAD to be strong. 

Give yourself credit. 

And give yourself the gift of the resources and support that you need to get back out there on the road. 

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The boring truth about how I lost 100 pounds.


The way I lost 100 pounds worked for me. There’s no guarantee it’d work for you— or for anyone else, really. 

That’s one of the big problems I have with the way many self-help teachers advertise: even though many of them have inspiring stories, they have a tendency to broadcast that the way THEY overcame THEIR obstacles will work for EVERYONE. 

Then they charge you for the scoop on how THEY did it. 

I’m a bad self-help guru, because giving it to you free on a blog post— but I’m also being realistic about the fact that may way may or may not resonate with you. 

(I’m also being realistic about the fact that I’m not a nutritionist, dietitian, or otherwise qualified to tell anybody what to eat. I’m writing from the point of view of an authority on behavior change ONLY.)

There wasn’t any magic to it. 

I adhered to a calorie budget designed for me by an app (MyFitnessPal). 

For well over a year, I adhered to that calorie budget every day. No days off, no “cheat” days. 

(Eventually, after hitting and maintaining my goal weight for the better part of another year, I did allow myself the odd cheat meal– but even now, after logging into the app for well over 1,000 consecutive days, I follow its calorie recommendations between 5 and 7 days a week.)

I chose to monitor just that one variable— calories in and calories out— instead of macros or the composition of my diet, because I knew that it was very likely that if I tried to monitor/restrict more than one variable, I’d get overwhelmed and use that as an excuse to quit. 

All of that was important— but to me, the most important step was this: 

Every single day, at the end of the day, I’d take a screen shot of my food and exercise log, and texted it to a good friend who had agreed to be my accountability buddy for this project. 

She wasn’t there to shame or chastise me if I had a rough day with it. Nor was she necessarily there to encourage or reward me for having a good day. 

She was just there as an extra set of eyes on my project, so it existed somewhere other than in my head. 

That’s it. That’s the entire story. 

I did that for a period of about two years or so before settling in at my current weight, which hovers about a hundred pounds below where my highest weight was. 

See, this is the reason why my approach to behavior change is so straightforward. 

This is why I’m constantly banging on about habits and patterns over time instead of INSTANT insight and LIGHTBULB moments. 

I believe that the simple things we do every day, matter. 

i believe accountability matters. 

I believe self-kindness and self-compassion, matters. 

I believe what we choose to submit to, matters. 

In my case, I had to come to terms that there was no way I was losing this weight without learning to submit to a calorie budget. 

I had to come to terms with the fact that I needed pair of eyes on this project that were not mine. 

I had to come to terms with the fact that I needed an app to tell me how many calories I needed to consume to lose weight, instead of relying on my own instinct about what felt “right” to eat. 

None of that was easy. 

But over time, I got used to it. 

We get used to changes we choose to make, in the service of goals we find important. 

I wish there was some flashy, sexy behavior change trick that I could tell you would make all the difference in the world when you’re trying to make a change. 

But there isn’t. 

For me, it was math, an app, and a friend. 

The most effective solutions are very often the simplest. 


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Trauma and hope.


People who don’t know your story, will expect you to behave as if you did not endure the things you have endured. 

For that matter, most people will pretty much expect you to behave as if your story, was their story. 

People who have not experienced abuse, often do not take into account the impact of abuse on others’ thoughts, feelings, and behavior. 

Often they do not know or appreciate the impact of living with reality-based fear and anxiety over a period of years. 

They’ll often expect you to “get over it” or “not be so dramatic” when your post traumatic responses kick in. 

Sometimes they will be impatient or dismissive or your responses or symptoms. 

All of which is frustrating, insofar as most people who suffer from the aftereffects of abuse or trauma would love NOTHING MORE than to not be so affected by it. 

They would love NOTHING MORE than to be able to “not be so dramatic.’ 

They would love NOTHING MORE than to “just get over it.” 

But, as trauma survivors, we do not have that straightforward option— to just behave as if we are not trauma survivors. 

Consequently, we must learn to live in a world that often does not understand us, our reactions, or our needs. 

This can feel lonely. 

This can even feel hopeless. 

There is a reason why self-harm and suicidal ideation are such common symptoms of severe post traumatic disorders: because post traumatic difficulties are very often among the most alienating difficulties humans can struggle with. 

It’s hard to endure post traumatic symptoms, while at the same time being misunderstood and often rejected by the world around us…and still look to the future with any kind of hope. 

Why am I writing about any of this? 
Because you, reading this, need to know that you are not alone. 

You, reading this, need to know that you are not the first or the only person to experience what you’re experiencing. 

You, reading this, need to know that there ARE things that you can do and things that can happen that will increase the quality of your life and decrease the intensity of your symptoms. 

Recovery from post traumatic difficulties is possible. We have science and we have experiences that bear that out. 

But I’m writing this because I know full well that a lot of people struggle, a lot, to believe that. 

It’s true that you might have a set of specific experiences that I do not know about, or that nobody else has EXACTLY experienced before. 

I’m not in any way saying that I, or anyone, knows EXACTLY what you’re going through or EXACTLY what you’ve endured. 

What I am saying is that there absolutely ARE people who have endured absolutely HELLISH traumatic experiences…who have not only survived, but gone on to recover and thrive. 

I am in no way saying it is easy. I am in no way minimizing the struggle. I am in no way dismissing the pain that you, specifically, have had to face. 

But I absolutely believe that there is a way out of the pain for everybody reading this…that does not involve hurting oneself or anyone else. 

If you haven’t found the right supports yet, if you haven’t found the right program yet, if you haven’t found the right tools and skills yet…please keep looking. 

I have a lot of experience in this area— starting with my own recovery. 

I would not put this assertion out into the world unless I believed it to be true. 

You can recover. 

You can live. 

You can wholly transform the way you feel and function. 

Please keep trying. 


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You are not your job.


There seems to be a pervasive emphasis in our culture on making your job your main source of life satisfaction. 

Our cultural mythos is full of people who became “successful” by either landing or creating their “dream job.” 

When we think of people we consider “successful,” we very often think of people who are awesome at and highly paid for their job. 

The self help movement in Western culture in particular has really pushed this idea. 

Very often self-help gurus prominently push the idea that, if you adopt their philosophies and use their tools, you’ll experience a renaissance in your professional life— you’ll earn a lot more money, get a lot better at your job, or maybe even leave an unfulfilling job in favor of a new job or career that you DO find fulfilling. 

Conversely, we very often feel we are a failure if we are not working our “dream job.” 

It seems we often assume that if we’re working a job we don’t love, mostly to pay the bills, it’s because we lack the creativity or initiative to really “live our dreams.” 

A large subset of people look at their professional life, and they feel that they’ve somehow wasted the potential they once had because they didn’t get to be an astronaut or a movie star or the CEO of a company. 

I’m all for people working jobs they enjoy. I’m all for taking steps to improve your level of happiness and satisfaction at your job. 

But I also think we very much overestimate and overstate the importance of finding that “dream” job or career. 

I understand that for many people, our job consumes an overwhelming amount of time and attention. OF COURSE it makes sense to do everything we can to find ourselves in a job we enjoy, and which we feel makes a difference. 

The truth, however, is that your job doesn’t need to be the main source of your happiness or life satisfaction. 

For some people, their job will NEVER be their main source of happiness or life satisfaction— and that’s okay. 

There are people whose interests and passions are incompatible with making a living. 

There are people who are not built to do the things they’d need to do to earn a lot of money— not because they lack character or intelligence, but because the way our economic reality is structured just doesn’t fit wit who they are. 

For these people, this relentless focus on finding a “dream job” or somehow earning a fortune from their passions or interests can be incredibly alienating. 

Furthermore, the world cannot sustain every human being achieving their “dream career,” insofar as we NEED people to work all sorts of jobs that very few people would consider ideal. 

Every time I talk about this, I get people pushing back at me because a lot of people hate their jobs, and they seem to think I’m saying you shouldn’t try to change it if you do hate your job. 

I’m not saying that. I am emphatically for trying to be as happy and satisfied as possible in every domain in your life. 

What I am saying is, don’t lock yourself into imagining that your job HAS to be the centerpiece of your happiness— or even the centerpiece of your life. 

We all know some people who are unhappy specifically BECAUSE their job is the centerpiece of their happiness— or lack thereof. 

A job is something you do to pay the bills. Yes, it can be more than that— but you are not a failure if you haven’t managed to find or create that “dream career.” 

Focus on what you need out of life— regardless of what you do for a living. 

Focus on the feelings and experiences you want to create and feel on the regular— and if your professional life can facilitate those, great!

If your job cannot or does not facilitate your preferred feelings and experiences, don’t panic— and don’t get down on yourself for failing to “succeed” professionally. 

There’s a lot more to life than what you do for a living. 

Take care to create and nurture sources of happiness that do not depend on your professional life. 

Remember who you are independent of your salary or your work performance. 


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