You are not your trauma– you’ve been hijacked by your trauma.

We are not ourselves when we’re triggered— we become who we think we need to be to survive. 

Trauma responses are not “choices.” 

It really matters that we understand this— because Trauma Brain, the internalized voice of our bullies and abusers, will effortfully try to get us to believe that us triggered is the “real” us. 

That our behavior when we’re triggered represents “choice.” 

Here’s the thing about that: choices, in order to be true choices, need to be meaningfully free. 

That is: the alternative “choice” needs to be realistic and survivable. 

Does anybody reading this experience triggers and trauma responses as true “choices?”

When we’re tossed into a fight, flight, freeze, fawn, or flop response, we’re doing it— reflexively— because our nervous system truly doesn’t believe the alternative is survivable. 

Trauma responses represent survival instincts, not free “choices.” 

And for that matter: what we think, feel, and do when we’re triggered has virtually nothing to do with our goals and values— you know, those things that make us, us. 

Triggers and trauma responses do not “reveal” our true personality— they obscure it. 

When our nervous system flips parasympathetic to sympathetic dominance, all of our internal resources get shunted toward staying alive— not being our most authentic self. 

So many survivors get so down on ourselves for how we are when we’re triggered. 

The culture around us doesn’t exactly help, either— many of us have plenty of people in our lives who are only too happy to tell us that our trauma defenses actually represent our “real” personality. 

Something I strongly believe about trauma recovery is that it is about rediscovering our authentic self— that our authentic self has been hijacked and/or buried by our trauma patterns, and recovery is essentially a search and rescue operation.

In some cases, recovery is a rebuild-from-the-ground up operation, for that matter. 

But one thing I know for absolute certain is that our triggered “self” is in no way our real self. 

I don’t care how long it’s been: there IS a “you” in there, underneath it all. 

I know it may not feel like it right now, but humor me and start out from that assumption. 

That you are NOT your trauma responses— you’ve been hijacked by trauma responses. Maybe for years or decades. 

Trauma recovery is emotional archeology— and emotional alchemy. 

Breathe; blink; focus.